It is strange to me sometimes that I can feel the way I do about us, I admit its a little scary, 5 children my two needing to get used to the idea that we are joining another family and becoming one really big family, but you do make it so easy for me. Sometimes I can not understand what it is about you that I love so much, I just know that I do and it scares me so much, I just want to start our life as soon as I can and get it all moving, but I know that we are doing things the right way for our children and the wanting to protect them.

I get that we or is it I sometimes bitch about the little things and I hate myself for it, I think it is because i have been so hurt before that I don't want to have that happen again to me, so I unintentionally hurt you. Please know that I love you so much and it seems like a fairy tail to have US.

I do feel some resentment towards your X for stupid reasons. I hate that she has so many of your memories forever of things I will never have with you, having babies and travelling around the world are things that you have with her that I can never have with you and so I resent her for having those with you. I know we will make our own as time goes on, but will they mean as much to you as the ones that you had with her?